Week 6 – Sarah’s Blog – 23rd February 2016
This week in the meditation I was very aware of a certain sensation like I was falling asleep. My mind relaxed until I felt myself crossing over the boundary into slumber. And yet, I remained awake and conscious, as if watching all this from afar. It was strange but magical. In fact, the effect the development circle was having on me was becoming ever stronger, beautiful even. That is the only way I can describe it. Beautiful in the sense of feeling in touch with the divine, so big, so all encompassing, you didn’t see it at first, but there it was. Other people mentioned in their daily lives the effect had been so subtle they hadn’t noticed it at first, but it was no less profound.
It was clear too that some people were already making contact with spirit during the meditation. Some had even described seeing various guides. I can’t deny I fell into the trap of comparing myself. I, too, was feeling a presence, changes in my energy body, in particular as if my head was disappearing this week, but beyond that, I couldn’t distinguish anything. I tried to remind myself I was focusing on MY energy at this point. Then, as I was walking home after the circle, I had a mysterious sense of déjà vu, of remembering seeing something in the beckoning inky darkness of my mind’s eye as I was falling asleep a few nights before. I had forgotten about it. It had taken the evening’s development circle to bring it back to my awareness. I had seen shimmering otherworldly colours as I lay in bed, like a perfect iridescent rainbow. I couldn’t tell if the rainbow was in my body or outside.
When I got home, I felt compelled to google the words ‘rainbow’ and ‘body’ together. Was spirit guiding me? This combination produced mesmerising illustrations of Tibetan masters demonstrating the fabled ‘rainbow body’ in google images. I hadn’t known about this phenomenon. And was this a guide for me? Too many questions. What to say to that other than: “Patience, dear grasshopper, patience”. My mind was running forward. I would just trust…
But in the meantime, why not google those words dear reader and take a look yourself? Because, if ever there was a perfect illustration of what can be achieved by meditation, or the beauty of the human merged with the divine, this is it.