Sarah’s Blog: Week 8 – 8th March 20I6
Here we were at the end of term. It was funny how you could get so much from silence. No words, no instructions and yet it seemed we’d unearthed a treasure, whose richness was inexhaustible. In fact it seemed to me we’d only just begun scratching the surface of this new dimension, which included one’s own self. And thankfully it wasn’t the usual navel-gazing, self-obsession and self-analysis either, that quite frankly, I’d got bored of long ago. It was more a form of self-observation, watching how one’s thoughts, imagination and energy worked. And all this to notice that spirit was in fact NOT any of the above.
In the meditation it did not feel like I disappeared as previously. I loved how each week brought a new experience, a new facet, to remind me that my limited little mind was not in charge of the curriculum. And true to form, this time I was really aware of my energy field as I sat quietly. Previously in the circle, I had been aware of my body’s sensations and that was indeed the case here, but now the sensations went beyond the boundaries of my physical self. It was the most delicious feeling. At times it felt like a rustle across my upper arms, as if I had wings. I had always known wings symbolised the subtler realms: angels, Pegasus or the images of Hermes with wings at his feet, but now it took on a greater resonance. I sat in the silence and just experienced this lovely sensation of flowing energy, of being greater than my physical form.
After the meditation, Gordon spoke to the whole group. He explained that concentrating solely with our minds was not it; we had to ‘feel’ across our whole energy body. This was quite literally the ‘field’ in which we should be working as mediums or healers. It was such a nice feeling to get out of one’s head and to be this expanded self, to sit in this power. Gordon also explained that we would now be dividing into smaller groups, and quite literally, the circle of trust, would become more intimate. We were going to invite spirit into our energy fields. Clearly many in the group were already doing this, some already working mediums. I too had certainly had intimations of spirit in the previous weeks. But still, a new phase.
So now the box of treasure had a new compartment, for discovery after Easter. I felt the excited anticipation I had felt in January when this whole adventure had begun.