Sarah’s blog – Week I0 – April I9th
This week we had Steven leading the class. Afterwards he told us a funny story. When he had begun opening up to spirit, like all people he was very excited to know who his spirit guide was. One day he ‘saw’ a Native American and the name Crazy Horse came to his mind. He was thrilled with this and everywhere he went he believed he had this Native American with him. Off they went, down to the shops together, to the park, to work… they were a real double act. With hindsight, it’s funny, but at the time he absolutely believed it. The guide appeared so real and vivid. Many people go through this phase. Soon though, as his development progressed, he started questioning whether this guide was real. He told us when his real guide eventually came through, it was a totally different experience. Steven was making a really valuable point. If spirit is genuinely present, we tend to ‘feel’ or sense it in our energy bodies. If you are ‘seeing’ certain things, but have doubts, chances are it’s your imagination and its power to fool you. It was a process of discernment we all had to go through.
The story made all of us laugh and brought a certain ‘levity’ and lightness to the circle this week. He’s not called Steven Levett for nothing you know. Joking aside, all this leads to a realisation I made after the circle. I had to ask myself was I really ready to sense spirit in this way? Was I blocking this on some level because I had not made this commitment? It was one thing to intellectually believe in spiritualism, to take comfort in a medium’s words when they gave irrefutable evidence, but another to really live it energetically, to absolutely walk your talk, to realise there is a vast energy called spirit that is conscious and for that realisation to go into every cell of your body. And it’s very human to have a bit of trepidation too. To imagine and see visions in your head could seem unconsciously safer than to feel the hair’s stand up on the back of your neck and head. I wasn’t frightened as such this week, but there was a definite Scooby doo and Shaggy moment (“oh oh”) when I realised this was starting to happen during the circle. It was now becoming so intense and there was no mistaking it.
But I felt absolute trust. I knew I could control the process. I wasn’t in charge of spirit but I was in charge of me. This was crucial to understand. Ultimately it’s an interesting question to ask yourself if you are sitting in circle and particularly if you feel you are not getting anywhere or receiving messages. Why is spirit not getting through and who is blocking it? Could it be you? I was learning that part of spiritual development is crossing over these personal and energetic thresholds and making yourself ready on different and often profound levels. I still didn’t have a strong sense of a particular individual guide but what I was experiencing was more than enough, believe me. And while it would have been nice to go dancing down Westbourne Grove with a Native American chief with a beautiful feathered head-dress by my side, we’ve got Notting Hill Carnival for that. I could wait.
I was going to enjoy the week because a new phase of spirit had arrived in the circle. We had lift off. Levettation indeed…
Thanks Steven, I’m still chortling about your story.